“Baby” (A4, pen)
Fast sketch. Hope you like. There are quite a few paintings and drawings here in this blog already, but if you want to see the ones that I like the most, check out my favorites.
I have only a couple of weeks left at the work practice and I can not believe it! It’s gone by so fast! I’ve learned so much and I’m so happy that I got to go to that surgery ward in particular. There has been a lot of work to make the everyday life functional, but I have enjoyed it.
I feel like I have won many fears during these last 6 weeks. This made me think of other fears that I’ve had since I was little and how I have won many of them one at a time. How the fear turned into curiosity and then I had to try and then it turned into a strength. Sounds crazy, huh? I was afraid of the blood, of the wounds, of the pain of the sickness of the patients in the surgery ward. But also way interested in how to care for them. The first day when I had to wake up 5.30 in the morning I thought: “why in the whole world do I put myself through this??? Why didn’t I go to art school instead, that’s what I’ve been doing my whole life, that’s what I’m good at. Why didn’t I go to University instead, I’ve after all always been more of a theoretical person than a practical one…?”. I don’t know why I get myself into these situations, but I REALLY want to learn how to not be afraid of blood and pain and wounds and sickness and be able to help other people in that horrible state. I want to be that person who is calm and effective and knows what to do. So I put myself through it. And it feels great!! Now I’m not afraid anymore and I’m getting a hold of the practicalness.
I’ve felt that MANY times during my life, making choices, wanting something, but then feeling physically sick about really doing it. Good things, fun things, things I really like and want, but they terrify me. Somehow, luckily, I still made myself do them and relaxed and had fun and enjoyed them. It’s hard work, but it’s completely worth it! Having dreams and make them come true! Life is short and I don’t want to regret choices I make!
